As I reflect on what the new reality is for a friend, who just gave birth to a beautiful child who was born with complications, I was reminded that everything happens for a reason and with a purpose.
I was reminded today, or rather told, that everyone is born "with a purpose at an appointed time." Not only is every child born exactly when and where they are meant to, but it reminds me that this is also true for me.
As I have dealt with depression and anxiety issues for years, I often wondered "why me?" I often wondered if I was adopted, though I'm the spitting image of my mother, with my father's health and personality. I couldn't understand why I was made the way I was, because I always felt like I fell short.
But as I was reminded today, I was created specifically how I am, specifically when I was, for my specific situation.
So was everyone who is on this earth,
Of course, going through what our family is dealing with, I am reminded that Abby is exactly who she is meant to be, and was born exactly when she was meant to be. Same goes for any children we may have in the future.
My challenge to us all is to view everyone, yes even the annoying person infront of us at Starbucks, as a beautiful, purposeful, God intended and created person.
Sometimes it seems as though lifr is controlling us. Its as if we are just onlookers to our own lives. We often feel like we have no control over what happens, all we can do is pray it will be ok.
In those moments it's really easy to focus on being overwhelmed and any bad we can identify.
This is the kind of situation I find myself in now. As I sit in a crowded restaurant, waiting for a friend to arrive so we can have a girl's night, I am realizing how out of control I feel. It would be so easy to see everything as overwhelming. Everything from moving to mission trips, possibilities of birth control to take an infertility break, to even the simple goings on of life. These things seems to be happening around me, with me praying that certain outcomes would take place. All I can do is pray.
Pray in the morning, through the day, and, it seems, pray myself to sleep.
But as I sat in traffic earlier today, in no particular rush to be anywhere, I realized that though I have a lot going on, a lot that can stress me out, I also have a lot to be thankful for. My husband sometimes thinks I'm pulling at straws when I'm trying to be thankful for everything we are blessed with, but it helps me realize its not so bad.
Find what you're thankful for, even if it's just the blue sky, or the rain watering the trees.
