What We Hear

They say to your parents,  "I love watching your family grow!" I think,  "it won't grow because of me."

They say, "children are the greatest blessing!" I think, "I got blessed once"

They say, "what are you waiting for?" I think, "I'm doing my part. It just isn't happening."

They say, "Have faith." I think, "I literally wake up praying and fall asleep praying. I believe God can, I just don't know why he chooses others instead of me."

They say, "look at all these babies!" I think, "I'll just hug my one and only closer."

She says, "mom, do I have a sister or brother? " I think, "no, mommy just isn't working right."

She says, "do you have a baby in there?" I think, "no baby, but I pray every day that God might give us a baby again."

He says, "we'll be ok no matter what comes our way." I think,  "we've already had so many trials. I feel like with this one especially I'm letting you down."

He says, "I'll love you no matter what, even if we never get pregnant." I think, "I'm not sure I can love me if I bring you, our daughter, and me, pain every time someone announces their pregnant,  or we see a big family,  or are asked to hold a baby."

I hear, "God loves you,  he knows what's best." I think, "why does he let me hurt so much, for so long, for something that is biblical. The bible instructs us to multiply... I'm trying... but he keeps saying no."

Selling Our House Pt 1

Well at least I hope there is a part two ;) Here's to praying for a speedy sale!

We finally, after months of debating if we should or not, met with our realtor and signed all the paperwork!

Of course before that, we de-cluttered the whole house. Thankfully we were able to store A BUNCH of stuff at my in-laws house, so now we are left with only what we use every day, so basically just basic furniture and our clothes. (Plus Abby's toys....) I never realized how much clutter we had in the house. I really didn't realize how little of what we have we use on a day-to-day basis. Of course now that the house is empty, well basically, it seems a lot bigger!

Here are just a few of the pictures from the house, post de-clutter, gardening, carpet washing, etc...

 

So glad we re-did the front! You can actually see the house!

 

I can't believe that just yesterday, all of our clutter had gathered in this area to be moved!

 

Yes I still have my fall decorations, well some of them. I just had to keep it feeling "home-y."

 

Without all of the junk on the counter!... wait what? we have a counter!!

 

This was probably the most shocking transformation. I would show the before but it's thoroughly embarrassing. ;) Seriously! We have never seen our bedroom look so....well so empty!

 

 

Oh... and our bathroom! Goodness! Now I want to take a bath.... if only I didn't have to clean it after ;)

 

Empty man-cave :(

 

Abby's room.... I seriously had to kick her out to vacuum it and take a picture really quickly!

 

Same with the play-room.. ;)